What to do when God has you waiting .
“Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out! “Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counselor?” (Romans 11:33-34)
Have you ever had a dream that didn’t come true? Have you ever had one that you felt God gave to you and you are still waiting for it to happen? I have had a dream since I was a child that I’m still waiting to see come to fruition and I have lived almost a half a century. I believe that it is a desire that God has put in my heart, at times it has been a burning passion and at other times just a quiet longing.
Why does God put a dream in our heart and have us WAIT?
My dream is to go on a mission’s trip. When I was little my parents were missionaries in Alaska. Then we moved to Sacramento, California and my world fell apart. I didn’t want to live in California and I purposed in my heart that when I grew up I was going to become a missionary (in a foreign land) and get even with God for moving me. I’m sure you can see that wasn’t such a great strategy!
In High School I seriously looked at going on a mission’s trip with Teen Missions but that didn’t pan out. When I was in college, I began to pursue my goal even more and it was at a Missions Retreat of all places that God confronted me with my selfish desire to become a missionary. He asked me a pretty tough question, “Kristi, will you be willing to follow me if I never allow you to be a missionary in a foreign country?” That question broke me as I realized how I was really pursuing my own passions and desires rather than God’s, even though it was cloaked in the idea that I was “serving God”. That day I let go of my desires and surrendered to God’s desires for me.
But as I’ve grown and learned what God desires for me, I have felt an increasing, genuine passion to serve God on the mission field. And as the years have passed my passion seems to be increasing rather than decreasing. Yet I still have not been able to go.
I have watched my children and friends go on missions trips. I’ve even seen my husband who doesn’t seem to have a burning desire to go, travel with a music team to the islands of St. Kitts and St. Martin. A few years ago, I came really close to being able to go and just weeks before I was to leave the trip was cancelled. Why does God put within me this burning desire and yet I am still waiting for it to come to pass?
I don’t have an answer.
Romans 11:33-34 says, “Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out! “Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counselor?”
Who am I to give the Lord advice? But this I do KNOW – God is GOOD and His plans are for my good and not to harm me, that His timing is not my timing. God is at work even in the waiting and I choose to trust Him even though I don’t understand.
Father God, You know the longings of my heart, even the dreams that are so precious I can hardly bear to say them out loud. Help me not to grow weary when the wait is long. I know that Your timing is perfect. Remind me of that when it feels like You are late. I know that You are never late and You have not forgotten me. Draw me close to You I pray. Amen.
Questions: What are you waiting for? What dreams do you have that you have not seen come true? Will you truth God even though you don’t understand?