Born to Fly: The Story of Jaylene Johnson

by Gail R. and Jaylene J.

Fourteen year-old Jaylene flung herself onto her bed crying. It was only then, while “girl talking�? about the new world of periods and pregnancies, that she did the math. The new realization hit her in the pit of her stomach. Her parents had married because of her.

She knew her parents loved her, yet her family life had always been turbulent. When her parents separated, Jaylene reasoned that if she had not been born this pain would not be. With despair she wondered what value could there be to her life?

This young woman found herself on life’s journey seeking to find self worth.Through an intense need to achieve and seek perfection she tried to justify her existence. This led to a destructive eating disorder, drinking and even contemplating suicide.

Jaylene had hoped to find acceptance in the church. But her perception that most church-goers were judgmental toward those in hurting circumstances kept her from the freedom of being real there. Her sense of alienation was only reinforced. She stopped going to church completely.

God never abandons a hurting heart. He was not waiting for Jaylene to come back to church. No, God was waiting for her to come to Him. He was waiting for her to bring Him the broken pieces of her life. He knew her hidden scars.

Years passed. The little girl who loved to sing found herself growing into a broken woman, writing songs of her hurts and fears. She did not know that through music she would journey to wholeness, and through music she would touch the world. God came to her out of the pain and confusion. She cried and she wrote…

• “You take me broken, dropped and discarded
You take me just as I am when I am shattered, fragmented, scattered.
Somehow You still understand … loving me anyway.�?1

The realization of God’s acceptance, just as she was, began to penetrate her heart. Jaylene saw that, although we applaud the attractive, the fit and the talented, God simply looks into our hearts, loves us right where we are and longs for us to love Him back.

She began to understand that God created each one of us. He longs for us and seeks us out by His spirit. She began to believe that God loved her…deeply…and she was not forgotten. Words poured out…

• “When the day is weary and the road is long, the load is heavy.
Birds have lost their song.
Need to be reminded when I’m too weak to stand,
Need to be reminded I’m held by strong and mighty hands.
He sees me, He hears me, He knows my need.
And as I wait He pours His healing over me …
And I am not forgotten.�?2

She began to see that God looks past our failures and struggles. He looks past our successes, which we cling to for the shallow sense of worth we find there. He pronounces us worthy. He begins to bring His purposes about in our lives through the desires and abilities He has placed in each one of us.

The frightened young woman who once felt life would have been better had she not been born, began to open her heart to the God of love. She began to offer her talents back to Him and God began to change her…

• Don’t you know that you’re a precious miracle
Suffering transformed to something wonderful
All the things that had you bound
Have only made you stronger
So trust me and fly
Trust me and fly Butterfly girlb3
And fly she did! Thirty-five thousand feet in the air, caring for passengers, Jaylene Johnson’s body flew while her heart longed for its own direction. In 2000 Jaylene left behind her career as a flight attendant and began to put her journey to music. As she spread her own wings her song, “Daughter�? was given the award of “Contemporary Christian song of 2002.�?.The powerful lyrics speak for themselves.
• "turning a daughter of shame into a daughter of grace.�?4

Today Jaylene sings her heart out, helping women turn their hurting into healing by giving God the broken pieces of their lives. She has come to realize that her parents chose life when they brought her into the world, and God has worked His grace in their lives too.

No one is exempt in God’s invitation to move from the pain of the past to the promise of the future.

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Take a look at your life. How would you describe it? Contented? Rushed? Exciting? Stressful? Moving forward? Holding back? For many of us it’s all of the above at times. There are things we dream of doing one day, there are things we wish we could forget. In the Bible, it says that Jesus came to make all things new. What would your life look like if you could start over with a clean slate?

Living with hope

If you are looking for peace, there is a way to balance your life. No one can be perfect, or have a perfect life. But every one of us has the opportunity to experience perfect grace through a personal relationship with God through His Son, Jesus Christ.

You can receive Christ right now by faith through prayer. Praying is simply talking to God. God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude of your heart. Here’s a suggested prayer:

Lord Jesus, I want to know you personally. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life to you and ask you to come in as my Savior and Lord. Take control of my life. Thank you for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Make me the kind of person you want me to be.

Does this prayer express the desire of your heart? You can pray it right now, and Jesus Christ will come into your life, just as He promised.

Is this the life for you?

If you invited Christ into your life, thank God often that He is in your life, that He will never leave you and that you have eternal life. As you learn more about your relationship with God, and how much He loves you, you’ll experience life to the fullest.

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Love of a Lifetime
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