The Truth and True Love
Written by Kiwi Hsu, translated by Eugene Wu
In 2000 I divorced my husband because of his extra-marital affair. I had wanted a divorce but at first I couldn’t agree to the conditions he laid out. He wanted me to relinquish my rights to my business and to the custody of our son. I went through a rather long period of agony and pain. Eventually I realized that I had to face reality and decide whether I wanted to hang on to my business, money, and our son while losing my soul and mind. I also realized that the situation was have a negative impact on my son. I made the painful decision to get a divorce on his terms.
Having done so and giving up both my business and my custodial rights to my son, I sank to the lowest point of my life. My mind was full of questions about life: What did I do wrong? Why must I suffer this kind of fate? What is the meaning of my life? I needed love! I needed spiritual strength! I needed answers! I turned to religion and philosophy books and took part in some religious activities. But I remained unsatisfied. While I respected their philosophy of life, I knew deeply in me that these great teachers were human beings and not God.
I didn’t know where God was
I have always felt that there is a God, but didn’t know his name or where he was. By chance I met my present husband Masa. Masa grew up in a Christian family. He told me that if I wanted to seek the truth and true love, I must do it through an understanding of God. He gave me a Bible to read. At the beginning I couldn’t understand a thing. The only thing I could see was a bunch of strange names of people and strange names of places.
I argued with him in letters and over the phone concerning the Bible. But he was always patient with me and told me that it takes time for one to come to an understanding of God. He took me to Sunday school. When I read about miracles in the Bible, I gradually began to understand God’s plan for us and felt a sense of His strong love.
I also learned from God’s words that to live against God’s will is to inflict pain upon oneself. That reminded me of my failed marriage. My parents’ strong preference for boys over girls had made me determine early on in my life that I wanted to grow up like a male and to have a successful career. I did own two small companies.
But being preoccupied with making money, I had no idea how to nurture my marriage or to lend support to my husband. On the contrary I felt superior to him, thinking he didn’t have what it takes to be successful. What I didn’t know was I was going against God’ will, and arrogance and ignorance had landed me in the hell of suffering. It also dawned on me that the books on religion and philosophy I had read were all extension of what the Bible teaches. Once I woke up to the truth, I suddenly became enlightened.
God heard my call for help
Meeting my present husband was a blessing from God. God heard my call for help. He opened my eyes to wisdom and cleared away all my doubts. He made me understand that in this world only his love is everlasting, and not that of husband. My husband and I are just ordinary people. My husband would sometimes throw a temper tantrum like a child, at which time I would recall what the Bible teaches about our need to be like a child and be relieved.
God loves us, and leaves his words to remind us and to teach us because he knows our weaknesses. The Bible moves me deeply. I have come to understand that if I do what is righteous in God’s eyes, he will protect me like a father and let me enjoy true love and be blessed. I am awed by God’s power. He made it possible for me to use my broken English to discuss my questions about God with Masa, who does not know Chinese. We became friends afterwards and were eventually married. God also led me step by step to the United States. I learned from these personal experiences that God is omnipotent, for with him nothing is impossible.
Whatever setbacks I encounter nowadays, I always think of the pain Jesus suffered when he died for my sake. In comparison to his suffering my pain and my troubles are nothing. I am grateful to God for forgiving my sins, grateful to our Lord Jesus Christ for his love for me by dying on the cross. I pray that Lord Jesus you will help me understand the truth and true love as taught in the Bible.
Dear friends, maybe you are losing control in your life, feeling helpless, hopeless, or insecure. You can have that peace directly coming from God, by you appreciating and realizing what God has planned for you. Every single one of us can build that intimate relationship with God. Through the salvation made possible by Jesus Christ, you can experience God’s wonderful grace that will care for and guide you for a lifetime.
The God of Peace is only one prayer away. If you want the confident expectation of His strength and wisdom in your today and His help and hope for your tomorrow, you need only ask. Just tell Him…
I have gone my own way in life and have put my hope in so many things that have disappointed me. Forgive me and come into my life today. Show me how to live in the confident expectation of how You can impact my life, my character and my circumstances. I place my hope in You right now and ask You to make Yourself known to me in my life right where I walk. I thank you. Amen.
“May the God of Peace fill you with all joy and peace, as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” The Bible: Romans 15:13