Born into a Mess
Most people are born into families. Not me. I was born into a mess. I was unplanned and because I was on the way, my parents were forced into marriage by my father’s mom. They married a few months before I was born and separated shortly after my sister’s birth 22 months later. I grew up with my mom and had little contact with my biological father. My mom had two boyfriends after my dad and I always felt like a third wheel, trying to figure out where I fit. When I was old enough I found a boyfriend of my own and I was okay until we broke up.
Searching for fulfilment, I turned to drugs. All my unhappiness disappeared when I was high. Eventually, though, my mom found out about my drug problem and asked me to leave the house. That was a kind of wake up call, and after three weeks off drugs, I moved back home and my mom and I went to counselling. My counsellor diagnosed me with attention deficit disorder (ADD) and put me on medication. I became addicted to this medication and it took me seven months to get clean. Off drugs, I was able to start school again, but I still felt empty and unfulfilled, like my soul was thirsty. At school I met a girl named Krissa. At first I thought she was like me but she had something different. It wasn’t long before I got up the courage to ask her why she was so happy. Our discussion led to talking about serious stuff like God, religion and life’s big questions.
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But as I came to understand His love for me that He loved me so much He sent His Son to die for me I accepted God’s free gift of forgiveness and asked Him to be the leader of my life. I am so thankful to have God in my life, influencing my decisions with the inspiring words in the Bible. I have experienced a high no chemical or drug could ever produce. My heart is full and the thirst I felt is satisfied. The Bible, in Isaiah 55:1, says, “Come, all you who are thirsty.” And Jesus said, “Whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst again.“(John 4:13). If you’re thirsty, come and get filled with God!
Take a look at your life. How would you describe it? Contented? Rushed? Exciting? Stressful? Moving forward? Holding back? For many of us it’s all of the above at times. There are things we dream of doing one day, there are things we wish we could forget. In the Bible, it says that Jesus came to make all things new. What would your life look like if you could start over with a clean slate?
Living with hope If you are looking for peace, there is a way to balance your life. No one can be perfect, or have a perfect life. But every one of us has the opportunity to experience perfect grace through a personal relationship with God through His Son, Jesus Christ. You can receive Christ right now by faith through prayer. Praying is simply talking to God. God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude of your heart. Here’s a suggested prayer:
Lord Jesus, I want to know you personally. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life to you and ask you to come in as my Savior and Lord. Take control of my life. Thank you for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Make me the kind of person you want me to be.
Does this prayer express the desire of your heart? You can pray it right now, and Jesus Christ will come into your life, just as He promised.
Is this the life for you?
If you invited Christ into your life, thank God often that He is in your life, that He will never leave you and that you have eternal life. As you learn more about your relationship with God, and how much He loves you, you’ll experience life to the fullest.
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