What happens to the soul after suicide?

Written by Lynette Hoy NCC, LCPC

soulsuicideYou are not alone in your struggle with suicidal thoughts.

What happens to one’s soul/spirit after suicide?I recently had a close friend commit suicide and I am so worried that she will still not be at peace with herself. She had an anxiety disorder due to a troubled childhood and although she loved life, her friends, and her family, she just could not be independent as she could not relax.

We struggled together with this for so long. She was a creative and loving individual who had traveled much and lived away from us for a few years, so she had known independence. She feared for her sanity – she explained to me that she wanted to die because she actually did love herself and the constant thoughts going through her head would eventually turn into madness. I dearly love her and couldn’t bear to think that she will eternally go through this struggle. I am searching within myself to find meaning in my loss.

Advice: It’s obvious that you were and are a very close and loving friend. You have suffered with your friend right up to the end and beyond. You cared about her welfare, her emotional and spiritual state. But, now this tragedy has occurred and no matter what you or anyone tried to do – she has passed into eternity.

First of all, I want to tell you that your friend’s suicide and death was not anyone’s fault. Her suicide was the result of her choice and her psychological instability. Don’t let false guilt and self-blame take over. You and others tried to help. But, this woman is the one who made the choice despite all your pleadings and intervention.

Secondly, you need to grieve your friend’s death. You will go through several stages of loss: shock and denial, protest and dealing with the reality of her death, anger, confusion, depression and finally, reorganization. It’s normal to grieve. It’s important to care for yourself. You may need counseling. Go to your pastor for prayer and support. Read your Bible, especially the Psalms and the gospel of John. Jesus talks about God’s love for you and for the world, His plan to give you eternal life (John 3:16) and abundant life (John 10:10). Scripture will bring you comfort and hope for the future – hope for eternity.

The Bible does have stories about people who committed suicide but, it doesn’t talk about where their souls went – to heaven or to hell. But, Jesus promised: “I am the resurrection and the life – he who believes in me though he may die – yet shall he live.” John 11:25 If your friend trusted in Christ as her Lord and Savior – she is in heaven today. How do I know? Because Jesus said “I am the way, the truth and the life. No man comes to the Father but by me.” John 14:6

Jesus claimed to be God, to speak the truth and the words of God. He died on the cross for the sins of the whole world and then, rose from the dead on the their day. Over 500 witnesses saw the resurrected Christ!
Because of these facts – you can have great hope for the future! You can trust that Christ loved your friend greatly and will judge her justly.

Suicide is a devastating experience to those who loved its victim. Suicide happens because the person is so depressed and has not received the appropriate treatment – mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually.

But, suicide, though a sin, can be forgiven – at the foot of the cross where all sin is wiped away when one believes in the Savior who sacrificed Himself to redeem the world.

You will never feel comfortable with what happened. A life was lost. But, you can trust that God can bring good out of this circumstance. God can become more personal to you in this time of suffering. God can give you courage and make you a person of character with strong values. God can demonstrate His love and comfort to you during your pain. God can give you more wisdom to help others who have suffered.

This world is a broken place – a place that is not our home. We are just passing through. Your friend could not stand the emotional and mental turmoil she experienced. But, you can. You and God can go on.

She ended her stay on earth and God allowed her to do it. He did not cause her to do it because He is not the author of evil. He does allow people to make choices which are against His will. But, you can find hope and courage to discover God’s will for your earthly life. You can leave a legacy that will give others hope for tomorrow and for eternity.

If you find you are depressed and anxious because of this – see a counselor. You can find a counselor. God bless you as you discover what He has in store for you even in the midst of this loss.

Read Scott’s story of playing Russian Roulette.

Take a look at your life. How would you describe it? Contented? Rushed? Exciting? Stressful? Moving forward? Holding back? For many of us it’s all of the above at times. There are things we dream of doing one day, there are things we wish we could forget. In the Bible, it says that Jesus came to make all things new.

What would your life look like if you could start over with a clean slate?

Living with hope

If you are looking for peace, there is a way to balance your life. No one can be perfect, or have a perfect life. But every one of us has the opportunity to experience perfect grace through a personal relationship with God through His Son, Jesus Christ.

You can receive Christ right now by faith through prayer. Praying is simply talking to God. God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude of your heart. Here’s a suggested prayer:

Lord Jesus, I want to know you personally. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life to you and ask you to come in as my Savior and Lord. Take control of my life. Thank you for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Make me the kind of person you want me to be.

Does this prayer express the desire of your heart? You can pray it right now, and Jesus Christ will come into your life, just as He promised.

Is this the life for you?

If you invited Christ into your life, thank God often that He is in your life, that He will never leave you and that you have eternal life. As you learn more about your relationship with God, and how much He loves you, you’ll experience life to the fullest.

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Read about grieving
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Lynette Hoy, NCC, LCPC

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435 Responses to “What happens to the soul after suicide?”

  • Charles 420 says:

    Went from buying my own house and having good job in Union to now single living with my parents no job no money and a felony marijuana grow charge on my record so I can’t get work anywhere. [expletive removed]

  • Jamie Jamie says:

    Hi JP, are you suggesting that there is no one correct interpretation of these passages of the Bible, or that we can’t know what the correct interpretation is? How do you understand how the Bible answers the question of suicide?

  • JP says:

    I love how certain people feel that their interpretation of the Bible is the only correct one. Sounds like a bunch of mini-popes to me. :)

  • Aldo says:

    Joey, yes, there is only one “unforgivable sin,” and that is- not accepting and receiving Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior.

    Have you done that Joey? If so, trust Him to make you into the person He wants you to be- a witness for Him. Let’s pray:

    Father God, touch Joey with Your precious Holy Spirit, and fill him with His power. Grant him the faith and courage to live for You, because You died for him, in Jesus’ Name I ask this, amen.

  • Tim says:

    Pat I would strongly disagree with you saying about people who commit suicide go directly to Hell for one if one is condemmed for this sin then we all are condemmed for every sin and we are all going to hell!!! even you. You are passing judgements against people when you don’t know. If this is the case even yourself is going to burn, is this the Christian way to think? I seriously think not!!! God has made a great plan for all people great and small so sorry your thoughts are so evil….

  • Jamie Jamie says:

    Hi Joey, it is good to hear of your trust in Jesus to save your soul, but I want you to know that Jesus’ plan for you is not just to welcome you into Heaven, but to give your life meaning and purpose here on Earth. He said, “I have come that they [His followers] might have life in all of its fullness.” (John 10:10) Obviously right now your are going through some difficult circumstances, and I am sure that the pain you are feeling has been going on for quite some time. The Bible says that Jesus can sympathize with our weaknesses because he entered into our existence as a human just like us. He knows the pain you are experiencing and He will help guide you through it in order to overcome. You can trust Jesus to lead you into the best way to deal with the troubles that you are facing, just as you trust Him to pay for the penalty of your sins.

    I would like to pray with you Joey; what are the circumstances of your life that have become overwhelming for you? We can stand together in prayer asking for Jesus guidance for you.

    Where did you hear about Jesus’ love for you? How have you experienced that love in your life?

  • Joey says:

    Obviously Patrick doesn’t understand the pure love of the lord. I’m am not religious or go to church but I believe Jesus Christ. I am close to suicide and I honestly believe that Jesus will forgive my dumb act of self murder. I have always done good on this earth whether it leaves me ahead or behind which behind is usually the case as long as I know that I have help someone else who is less fortunate than me. I don’t see how the man who died for our sins could turn away an honestly good and loving soul whether they have committed suicide or not. God knows your true heart and will not let s pure loving helping soul perish. I want to commit suicide and I just really hope I can meet Jesus and spread love through the planet. It needs it.

  • Jamie Jamie says:

    Hi Patrick, I appreciate your desire to remain faithful to what the Bible says no matter how difficult that message is. The 10 Commandments lists a number of sins that separate us from God, which includes “Thou shalt not kill/murder” (Exodus 20:13) There is no doubt that by transgressing any of those commandments will result in an eternal separation from God, and it is clear that no human, except for Jesus Christ Himself, has been able to refrain from transgressing any of those commandments. That is the reason why we need God’s intervention on our behalf to rescue us from the path of eternal destruction that each of us is on. Thus Jesus came to Earth as one of us so that He could take our penalty on Himself and rise from the dead to offer us new life in Him. As Paul wrote in his second letter to the church in Corinth, “God made Him [Jesus] who knew no sin, to become sin, so that we could become the righteousness of God.” (2Corinthians 5:21) For all who put their trust in Jesus they no longer have to pay the penalty for their transgression against the 10 Commandments, because Jesus already paid it for them. Paul expresses that so beautifully in Romans 8:1,3-4 “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus…For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, He condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.”

    So, even if a follower of Jesus breaks the commandment “Thou shalt not covet…” and is killed before they are able to confess that sin, we can know that they will still be welcomed into the presence of Jesus because His death paid the penalty for that sin. Similarly, if I, as a follower of Jesus, am overwhelmed by depression and pain, and as a result commit suicide, Jesus’ death has paid the penalty for my sin and I will not face condemnation because I am in Christ Jesus. If there is no confidence of heaven for the one who takes their own life, then there is no confidence for anyone else either. We no longer trust in what Jesus has done for us but instead need to trust in what I have done or not done, and that Patrick, is a hopeless place to be. But Christ has set us free from that hopelessness.

    Just like all other sin, there is a danger of proclaiming this message because there would be some that use the hope of Christ as a licence to sin. I want everyone to know that there is no depression, no pain, no loneliness that is beyond Jesus’ ability to rescue you from. Suicide is not the answer to solve your problems. Jesus has a plan for your life right now and He will give you all that you need to persevere through it all. Taking your own life reveals a lack of trust in Jesus love and power to overcome. So please do not be fooled that suicide is the only path. Reach out to Jesus and His followers to find the strength to go on in His love and power.

  • Patrick says:

    Eternal hell awaits people who commit suicide regardless of state of mind,motives,etc…the bible doesn’t speak anywhere of exceptions and such under any circumstances,if there were exceptions it would be mentioned,the commandments are clear,it doesn’t `you`ll be forgiven if you kill for this reason or if you commit suicide because you`re insane,it doesn’t say sins are forgiven if committed in certain circumstances,the bible is clear and direct no matter how much some want to modify it with “revised” versions and such to accommodate their needs because they find scripture as it is unpleasant,unable to accept that a loved one that committed suicide is in eternal hell and desperately need comforting.

  • Sharon says:

    to Patrick I am sorry you believe that would you go to hell because you don’t think properly and can’t handle life poor people who believe that read this and their loved one died by suicide because they didn’t think properly and couldn’t handle life and thinks their loved one went to heaven but they did believe don’t you think JESUS has compassion on people who love him but died by suicide– sharon

  • Patrick says:

    No matter ow many versions of the bible,revised,etc… try to spin around and change scripture to suit their needs with claims of being correct,the fact will always remain that suicide falls under the no killing commandment,thus it is a direct expressway to eternal hell,no getting around it,for believers that is.

  • wesb says:

    Hello Patrick. May I suggest that your information is out of date. The King James Version of the Bible says in Exodus 20:13 “Thou shalt not kill”. However, the New King James Version and most other new translations have corrected the earlier version to more correctly read, “You shall not murder”. Murder is killing for personal and usually selfish reasons. Judicial killing, when carried out by a lawful government for the common good, is recognized by God in the Bible as being acceptable and legitimate. God carried out judicial killings. Were his actions punishable by eternity in hell? God is not evil. Under certain circumstances, God commanded his people to carry out judicial killing and in such cases, killing was right and good when done in obedience to God’s command. His commandments are not evil, and the people carrying out his judicial commands are not evil. Obeying God is good, wouldn’t you agree? Here is God’s ruling on lawful government authorities carrying out judicial killings: “For the one in authority is God’s servant for your good. But if you do wrong, be afraid, for rulers do not bear the sword for no reason. They are God’s servants, agents of wrath to bring punishment on the wrongdoer.” Romans 13:4 In fact, in the King James Version that you quote, the government authority is referred to as a “minister of God”. The sword represents the symbol of authority that the government bears, and represents the power over life and death. As you can see, legitimate government authorities, and those carrying out judicial killings under government authority, (police, military, etc) are doing so as God’s servants. That is a very high calling and certainly not punishable by eternity in hell, or liable for any other punishment.

  • Patrick says:

    Sorry but the bible clearly states killing is wrong,remember the commandments,there are no exceptions concerning suicide,thus suicide is killing and thus punishable by eternity in hell,case closed.

  • Sharon says:

    to J I am sorry you are suffering with pain and a wife that should support you but doesn’t God does love you and HE knows your pain YOU ARE SOMETHING GOD DIDN;’T MAKE JUNK HE LOVES YOU WITH AN EVERLASTRING LOVE HE DIED FOR YOU IF YOU WERE THE OBNLY ONE IN THE WORLD HE STILL WOULD CIE FOR YOU PRAYER father God you are greater than the one in the world I pray for this wife open her eyes to see on what she is doing to her husband and I pray a healing upon them both and for a reconciliation over this marriage I pray all of this in JEUS name amen I am praying for you both– sharon

  • J says:

    Some people think that “SUICIDE IS REVENGE TO THOSE MAYBE IN OUR LIVES FOR ONE REASON OR OTHER! As with ME, it is NOT THAT BUT IT IS BECAUSE OF ALL THE STRAIN AND PROBLEMS IN MY HEAD AND NO MATTER HOW I TRY TO FIGHT THROUGH THE HEAVINESS NEVER, EVER LEAVES ME! ALSO, I FEEL LIKE I AM A BURDEN TO OTHERS BECAUSE OF MY MENTAL HURTS! JUST IMAGINE ALWAYS FEELING A PAIN AND HURT LIKE THIS AND EVEN HOW HARD YOU FIGHT IT DOES NOT AMOUNT TO ANYTHING OTHER THAN MORE DISPAIR BECAUSE YOU CAN’T GET PASSED IT! (BUT, ALSO, JUST IMAGINE HAVING A WIFE THAT HAS GIVEN THEIR LIFE TO CHRIST DOING THE OPPOSITE OF GOD’S WORD AND INSTEAD OF SHOWING UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND HELP, YOU CATCH MORE HELL OF BEING, PUT DOWN, FORGOTTEN ABOUT, LOOKED AT AS NOTHING AND NOT WORTH ANYTHING EVEN FOR THEM TO NOT EVEN WILLING TO READ THINGS THAT COULD HELP IN FIGHTING THESE DEMONS! BUT WITH OTHERS, SHE WILL SUPPORT IN PRAYER AND UNDERSTANDING! AND THIS IS THE SAME CHRISTIAN WIFE THAT THROUGH MY PAIN AND SUFFERING OVER MANY, MANY YEARS THAT IS BEING HELPED IN PROVIDING FOR AND WILL USE THE WORD OF GOD AS A WEAPON TOWARDS ME INSTEAD AS A WEAPON TO HELP FIGHT AGAINST THE DEMONS! BUT I GUESS IT IS OKAY BECAUSE SHE IS ONE OF GOD’S SPECIAL ANGLES AND I AM NOTHING BUT THAT BEAST THAT DOES NOT GET ANYTHING GOOD! JUST IMAGINE HOW THAT FEELS TO BE PUT DOWN AND NOT SUPPORTED WHEN THEY KNOW WHAT THE BIBLE AND GOD’S WORDS SAYS IN HELPING ONE ANOTHER! MAYBE IN MY LIFE IT IS OKAY FOR ME TO SUFFER AND TO BE PUT DOWN MORE! THAT IS THE ONLY THING I CAN SEE IS THAT THIS ALL ALONG HAS BEEN MY DESTINY FOR WHATEVER REASON! “THAT THORN THAT WILL NEVER BE REMOVED FROM MY LIFE IN THIS LAND OF SUFFERING!” SO IF ANYTHING, I WOULD BE DOING ALOT OF PEOPLE A FAVOR ESPECIALLY ME BECAUSE I AM WHAT REALITY TRULY IS! NOTHING FAKE BUT TRUE EVEN THOUGH HOW PAINFUL IT IS!”

  • Trish Hicks says:

    To all whom have made comments here. If may so add a comment to this conversation.Although its a sad concept to one feeling this way of suicidal. Can I just add that it is also these season of the holidays always.I really don’t know why but it is always around the holidays, people are feeling these feelings a lot and they truly deepened.in a holiday season.it is definitely weird when you have everyone else all happy and joyful.Its supposed to be a joyous season and yet its when a lot of deaths will occur,and depression abounds. So perhaps you can take that into consideration before you make any rash decisions.its only a season once it passes people start a new year. I say this up coming year will be a great one. Are any of you familiar with the power of words,it saids in the bible( Proverbs23:. – For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he).

    Its one of those verses that blew my thoughts when i first read it.I never knew it. I also never knew that if you think of yourself as not good enough,and ugly and all those not so nice terms people use.If you are thinking of yourself as such, other people will also and you don’t even have to say anything for them to start thinking that way.Another statement
    That really blew me away i was always, and i mean always putting myself down.
    Well i have slowly but surely learned to stop that real quick.It was a bit of a while because i am still getting those ugly thoughts sneaking in.But the idea about those thoughts is you just cast them out.Although its not easy but i really try hard to do this (Philipeans4:8-9 .Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. 9The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.

    Finally also I just also wanted to let y’all know as I am writing this and trying to i guess maybe call it preaching or more so teacher by no means am i a preacher.I am also teaching myself, I too am having down thoughts.Certainly not of suicide but just having issues at home.

    I also wrote all this to try and maybe suggest to y’all .that maybe this maybe an option for you.When you start to get those thoughts perhaps of suicide, firstly u probably should call the numbers listed here.Because they also have a person u can just talk about anything doesn’t even have to pertain to suicide.
    But what i am trying to elude to( if that is the right word) is that perhaps you may want to consider doing this meditate try to get those verse deep in your heart i have learned them both by heart verbatim because i suffer from the same problems of thoughts on myself.Speak them out loud.words have power only when spoken out loud.

    I do so hope this is able to help someone,
    with love in Christ
    Trish

  • Elkay says:

    Sam, I am very, very sorry to learn of your battle with TMAU and I urge you to try to develop a perspective that somehow brings some “goodness” into your life. And you would be quite justified to feel that’s easy for me to say since I do not have the disease.

    Job suffered terribly and wanted to die but his friend Elihu made some points that we have to remember:

    1) Behind every act of God is a loving heart and when we fail to acknowledge this and His wisdom, we are in error.
    2) We are fallen creatures with limited understanding and do not know the facts nor the future as God does.
    3) God does not owe us answers and even when He acts or speaks, we may not understand what is going on or what He is saying.

    So to address your situation, take a leap of faith and believe that God is good and has everything in His control even when we can’t perceive it (Ps 103:19); He knows the inside and outside of every situation and every past, present, and future event (Rom 11:33-36); and He loves us perfectly and always chooses what is best for us, even if it hurts (Ex. 34:6).

    As hard as this may be for you to believe, God’s goodness is expressed as our Creator, and we are His people. Every breath we breathe is from God. As our loving Shepherd, He watches over us and provides for all our needs. Trusting in God’s goodness grounds us with confidence during periods that feel hard, unfair, or painful. When we don’t understand what the Lord is doing, we can trust His heart and know that He cares for us.
    Sam, I pray that somehow or another you will take what I am saying here at face value and let it encourage you to trust Christ as your Savior and know that in the “new heaven and new earth” to come, there will be no disease and you will be freed from TMAU . . .

    I was able to identify a TMAU support group so please connect them at rareconnect.org/en/community/trimethylaminuria and see if they can give you some advice on lifestyle changes and/or habits that will reduce the disease’s symptoms.

    “Abba Father, Sam has TMAU and because nothing is impossible for You, we come to your throne of grace to find mercy in his dealings with this disease. As the Psalmists say we praise You LORD and we never forget the good things You do for us. You forgive our sins and heal our diseases. You redeem us from death and crown us with love and tender mercies. You fill our lives with good things and our youth is renewed like the eagle’s. We praise and thank You Lord, for You are gracious and have delivered many from distress. When in trouble, we have cried out to You and You have sent Your word and healed so we give thanks for Your mercy, grace and love and ask that, if possible, You would lead doctors to develop a healing process for the victims of this awful disease. Thank You, in the name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

  • Sam says:

    I have a rare metabolic condition called TMAU. I want to die because of this condition.

  • Elkay says:

    Emotionally Paralyzed, I hear the pain in your voice but please know deep inside that you are important in the sight of God. He says, “You are precious to me … and I love you” (Isaiah 43:4). The reason Jesus Christ came to earth to offer Himself in sacrifice is so that we might have life in all its fullness, and it is His desire that we be set free from depression, fear, frustration, and hurt so that we might experience this abundant life. Simply talk to Christ and ask Him to come into your heart as your Lord and Savior and to give you a new desire to live a life with purpose. The exact words do not matter to Him . . . but He wants you to reach out to Him.

    Did you read this article? Will you please consider taking a step towards positively building your life? Refuse to accept that a math grade is worth your life and know that peers making fun is just plain wrong and you can rise above them.

    Have you openly and honestly talked to your parents about how they are making you feel? They may just be trying to urge you on, not knowing that math is not your top skill and will then turn around and support you. Give them that chance. Share your pain with them.

    I can tell you that your life has a future and a hope. I have seen many people get help and go on to enjoy a good life! Everyone is created for the purpose of partnering with God to in some way, shape or form, cultivate a flourishing human society. He God planned good works for every one of us before we were even born and wants us to live richly!

    I hope that I have been able to talk you out of harming yourself. Please contact someone for help. Call a pastor, see a counselor, a friend, your doctor. We have mentors who are freely available to help and they will get back to you if you hit the Talk to a Mentor button at the top right and briefly described your situation. Take a step towards a renewed hope now. Please.

  • emotionally paralyzed says:

    i am suffering with the suicidal tendency in my mind,presently i am in high school and i am really bad in mathematics and everyone makes fun of me,my parents wants a result of 90% at least and constantly reminds me of my friends/relatives children who will be securing at least 95%. personally i know what would be my result it would be in between 82% to 87%. this things happens daily..i feel completely mentally destroyed by this pressure and i have thought several times to quit my life but my inner will is trying to stop me to take this step but day by day it is getting worsen,negativity is getting over me and now i am in a position called do or die and going by this rate i believe 2nd option will win.

  • Sharon says:

    to scared– I am sorry you don’t want to live anymore and your mom thinks you are worthless and your principal and your mom thinks you are schizophrenia you are NOT worthless you matter to God HE loves you HE made you I know if you always hears that you are worthless you think you are but you are NOT If you want to die please contact 1 800 SUICIDE 1 800 274 2433 or I 800 273 8255 is 1 800 talk in the bible it says in Jeremiah 29 11 God says I know the plans I have for you plans not to not to harm you but to give you a hope and a future prayer–father God I pray for scared right now I pray for favor for him for school and I pray give this person dreams and visions of you God and that you do love him and there is a future for this person on this earth you made this person for such a time as this I pray for Christians to come along this person path to encourage this person I pray all of this in JESUS name amen I am praying for you— sharon

  • Jamie Jamie says:

    Hi Whoknows, I am sorry that you have been living with so much pain. What are the things that are weighing heavily on you? When you talk about family who does that include?

    Let me encourage you to connect with a crisis hotline if you are planning on hurting yourself in some way. Here are some numbers that could help you connect in your area:
    Dial 911 in Canada and USA
    1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) USA & Canada
    1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) USA-National
    International Association for Suicide Prevention – Resources:
    Crisis Centers

    If you cannot find a resource in your area, please call your local emergency number.

    Hearing impaired call 1-800-799-4TTY (1-800-799-4889) USA

    Centerstone(Suicide Crisis Call Center) 1-800-273-TALK (8255) USA

  • scared says:

    I’m having trouble at school and it’s gotten to the point where if I miss one day my mom has to go tocourt. I have really bad anxiety from it and now I feel trapped because it’s midday and I’m not there cos I’m scared and now i don’t know what to do and I feel like I’ve been depressed from this for months now and my mom told me that she doesn’t want me and that im worthless and she doesn’t care about me and now I don’t know what to do and I’m having suicidal thoughts from this cos if I just died everything could just stop and would fix everything. I’m so problematic everything I do causes a problem and it would honestly be better if I was dead. There’s so much people and I’m literally having nightmares from this my principal even thinks I’m schizophrenic and so does my mom and so do I. I’m scared to die but at the same time I don’t wanna live anymore. I can’t explain any of this because they don’t understand it. I’m literally worthless and have no future

  • dream says:

    Linda Walker… It seems like you are under evil attack. The spirit if suicide and depression is attacking you. I know that women are more sensitive and feeling sad more but being under constant sadness, depression and suicidal thoughts is showing that there is a demon activity. Evil wants to destroy you. Resist him in the name of Jesus and command him to go away. Allow your pastor and other Christian pray over you, try to fast and read the Bible. Ask Holy Spirit go fill you. God is good and he wants to help you. Worship and praise him.

  • Linda Walker says:

    I am a Christian and I love and trust Jesus. I’ve been gping through bouts of depression and suicidal thoughts/attempts all of my life. My last suicide attempt was 25 years ago. It has been very hard living while constantly battling self-degrading thoughts. I managed to live this long by trusting Jesus, but I have been out of work on disability for 7 years because of mental and physical problems. My children are grown and live out of state. I don’t feel that I am fulfilling a purpose. I feel unloved as I always have. I’m lonely and I feel like I deserve every bit of this. I am really tired. My mother committed suicide also.

  • whoknows says:

    where was god or christ when this person obviously needed him most. its disgusting. i don’t want to live. i didn’t ask for any of this, i would love to commit suicide.i pray to die above anything else many times everyday for over a year. i don’t want my family to suffer hardship from a suicide. i would appreciate any ideas to make it look like an accident.. i tried hitting a ditch crossing doing 55 no seat belt. i walked away with just a sore neck and a bad concussion from my totaled vehicle. :-( . i just can’t think of another good way, and i don’t want to destroy another usable family vehicle.

  • Chris says:

    yakai….sorry to hear you struggling in life….this world can be a scary place, especially without the help of the one who created us, God himself. with God on our side and living within us, we can exerience his love and courage to overcome anything that might come our way. if you would like to know how to have a personal relationship with the One who made you, log onto knowingjesuspersonally.com or click talk to a mentor above. i am praying now that jesus christ would come into your heart as you open it to him and give you his peace that you so greatly need. bless you!

  • Jamie Jamie says:

    Hi Kenny, have you talked to anyone about your fears of schizophrenia? How old are you?

    I want you to know that no one deserves to go to Heaven. That is why Jesus died on the cross; as God, His death paid the penalty for our sin. By trusting in His sacrifice on our behalf we will be welcomed into Heaven because of what He has done.

  • Kenny Tang says:

    I don’t want my life anymore. I’ve been suffering from non-stop evilness thoughts in my mind since September 2014. Alao, I have a nonstop mind for 3 years already. I’m pretty sure that I have schizophrenia, so basically my life has gone terrible forever. The thing that I’m worried about committing suicide is that I will go to hell apparently because I have unforgiveness. I also think of killing people that I hate because I get bullied by them everytime. For the bad stuff I’ve done, I don’t think I deserve to go to heaven. I’ve swore more than 1,000 times. I just choose not to forgive my enemies. Please help.

  • Praying for Yakai says:

    Yakai I was going through this website watching videos and I came across your comment. I don’t know where you are in the world or what exactly you’re struggling with (or how long you’ve been struggling with it) but I knew immediately I wanted to pray for you.

    God, I pray that you would help Yakai. I pray that you would replace their fear with a feeling of peace and that you would give them something to hold on to. A hope for the future. Strength to face another day. A person in their day to day life to come beside them and envelop them in love. Yakai is fearfully and wonderfully made and I pray that they would realize this and have faith that you are not finished with them yet in this world. Love, encourage and lift up Yakai, Lord. Amen.

    Yakai – Elkay posted some numbers you can call just to talk or seek out hope. I pray you take the chance and reach out.

  • Yakai says:

    I am afraid of the living, I want to end it all but I am afraid of the dead… I don’t know what to do anymore I have nothing to hold on to please help me suffice myself or stop this struggle.. please

  • Sharon says:

    to p joseph– I am sorry you want to end this life and your struggle in life depression is a sad thing to have I had it years ago but God healed me from it. have you considered phoning 1 800 suicide in Canada and the US I don’t know where you are at and talk to a person about ending life I am praying for you may God be with you at this time– I am praying for Christians to come along your path to encourage you– sharon

  • P Joseph says:

    Ive been suffing my whole life with depression and poverty. Got anxiety so bad I dont even leave my room unless its for food or restroom. Now that Im certain Christ will be there for me I am ready to finally leave my suffering behind. I have no hope, no goals, no friends, and a family that doesnt understand depression. Life sucks here on earth. Cant wait to see Jesus :) Thanks for this article.

  • Elkay says:

    Afraid, it sounds like you are really feeling upset about something. Is it more than your family or being tired. How long has this been going on, or is it recent?

    Did you read this article? Will you now consider taking a step towards life? A step towards rebuilding your life? A step to reach out for help? Refuse to believe the lies you have been telling yourself. Lies that life is hopeless, you are worthless and you have no future.

    I’m here to tell you that your life has a future and a hope. I have seen so many people get help and go on to enjoy a better life! Everyone is created for the purpose of partnering with God to, in some way, shape or form, cultivate a flourishing human society. He God planned good works for every one of us before we were even born . . . search that out . . . live richly!

    Jamie earlier listed these emergency phone lines that might help right away:
    Dial 911 in Canada and USA
    1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) USA & Canada
    1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) USA-National
    Hearing impaired call 1-800-799-4TTY (1-800-799-4889) USA
    Centerstone (Suicide Crisis Call Center) 1-800-273-TALK (8255) USA

    I hope that I have been able to talk you out of harming yourself. Please contact someone for help. Call the numbers above or a pastor, see a counselor, a friend, your doctor. We have mentors who are freely available to help and they will get back to you if you hit the Talk to a Mentor button at the top right and briefly described your situation. Take a step towards life and hope now.

  • Afraid says:

    Help help, for some reason today fella like the day. I’m so tired I know my family would be okay without me.

  • A radical Christian says:

    PRAISE THE LORD!!!

  • Sharon says:

    to Chrystina why are you saying that you believe in heaven but won’t get there if you make a bad choice any experiences you had to say this if you repent and believe in JESUS as your personal savior people will go to heaven when they die I know you are just saying thank you for your comment— sharon

  • chrystina says:

    I do believe in heaven and u will not go there if u make a bad choice. Just sayin u could look at this all day????? or this?????? just sayin. It’s ur choice

  • Jamie Jamie says:

    Hi Caly, it sounds like you are pretty upset. Is this something that has been building for a while or is there something recently that has impacted you so strongly? I would like to give you help and support and I will if you let me but at this point, your safety is most important. Please contact a professional counselor right away. You will be surprised at how talking with someone can help give a different perspective on things. I know you want life to be better so I ask you to call and give it chance to turn things around.

    I’ve included some emergency phone lines for you below:
    Dial 911 in Canada and USA
    1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) USA & Canada
    1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) USA-National
    Hearing impaired call 1-800-799-4TTY (1-800-799-4889) USA
    Centerstone(Suicide Crisis Call Center) 1-800-273-TALK (8255) USA

  • caly says:

    god doesnt exist so…..[expletive removed] …….im gonna commit sucide if i want i dont care where i go anymore i am 14 years old……..goodbye jesus belivers he doesnt exist…….he makes the best people feel the worst about them selves so……[expletive removed] bye

  • lookingup says:

    Re: Nihanth,

    The reason that one should not commit suicide is that it is murder. Another reason is that your maker said in John 14:19 “BECAUSE I LIVE, YOU SHOULD LIVE ALSO.”

    Religion has nothing to do with suffering? I disagree, I think it has everything to do with it. I believe God created this world, free from all suffering. Man screwed it up by not listening to God and going his own way, which brought suffering into the world. The good news is that we have been promised that it will not continue this way forever. God’s promise is that at some point in the future He will bring and end to this age of suffering and for all those who put their trust in Him, all suffering will end.

    I understand your frustration with all of it Nihanth but all of this can either make us bitter at God or we can choose to have Him pay for all of our faults and have Him put an end to it all. But when He does it is vital (just as Chris said) that you are on His side.

    If you or anyone commits suicide without being on God’s side your suffering will never end. Your idea that one could continue to commit suicide is not a valid one. Scripture says that we are appointed “once” to die. One could be successful at killing themselves once but after that it will be impossible.

    So people should be very careful that their actions are based on fact, for the consequences will last forever.

  • Chris says:

    nihanth….i regret to hear that you have suffered in your life. while its true that jesus told us we would have challenges, he also told us to be of good cheer because he had personally overcome the world for us. we can walk in his victory he has set before us. if you would like more information on learning how to walk personally in victory in your life through the power of jesus christ log onto knowingjesuspersonally.com or click talk to a mentor above. i can assure you that whatever problem you might face, jesus will give you of his grace and power to overcome it so you can help others through christ with their problems as well. my prayer for you that you find rest in christ today!

  • Nihanth says:

    I do not understand why a person must not commit suicide, suicide is the perfect option for many in this world, they can choose suicide over suffering. Any body cannot help you , [expletive removed] god with his [expletive removed] bible. Religion has nothing to do with human suffering. After all what we will do with living. Nothing. Only to praise god and for that purpose god has created this endless suffering. To praise him. Indirectly his is telling praise him or I will kill you with suffering unbearable. you will be undergone through many ill fates if you do not come to god. that is the [expletive removed] gods principle. I tell you If god has given you life then commit suicide, we do not want a life to live. If he give you another life , then commit suicide again, to that extent, he is bored of giving life to you. Coming to life means you are prone to problems. I do not accept life from god , if he give me 1000 lifes to life , I will commit suicides 1000 times , that is my motto.

  • Nihanth says:

    First of all a life is gone . That is real. And all the things to pacify us are [expletive removed]. The person who committed a suicide does not want to take life, but she is suffering from a mental illness, do you know how sad and how painful the suffering will be, all the spiritual leaders will go on telling great words, as if nothing had happened, but suffering is such pain that to come out of it is not so easy. Many people who have brain disorders such as anxiety , depression, another brain demon OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). Many have been suffering from decades and dare not you dirty [expletive removed] of god beings to decrease the condition and suffering with your babbling words and stupid ideas of god. The idiot god is sitting in his divine [expletive removed] and who cares about this suffering, it goes on and on. I do not find any fault with that woman who committed suicide first of all, what that poor woman can do , what torture she may have undergone, what painful thoughts destroying that womans sanity and peace of mind. All the religious leaders of the world should atleast undergo that such of torture for at least a 2 years then they will get an idea. Simply speaking is not enough , you fools, because that idiot God cannot help you. If he can help he can help you from committing suicide and also giving salvation to the entire world now and in this present moment. Not even a single person is uncapable of committing sin in this world, then it seems like god has created this world only to commit sin and blunders, he finds satisfaction only through it . He seems like to be a perverted [expletive removed] , the supreme pervert. Even this religious idiots who think they are the apostles of god are nothing but a piece of [expletive removed]. If undergone through certain brain changes , they too will become mad and commit suicide. What they know of other peoples suffering, I am not talking about suffering of financial crisis or something, but talking about brain disorders. They do not have the idea about it. There is no wrong in that woman. Do you know a person suffering from this disease cannot rest or be at peace, they will be going through constant thoughts of suicide and unbearable pain. Their brain is their enemy. If they have come to a decision to end their life , it is simply because of their pain their condition is causing them. Talking about god or any idiot will not stop these pains until annihilation of human race. Only through complete annihilation do the pain stop. Can you tell me at what phase of human history does there is no pain. You cannot tell. You are just a idiotic religious fellow who cannot experience pain of other people who suffer . Every body does a lot of religious talk, I plead every religious idiot to study disorders and get an idea about it. They have to go to disorder persons and look and feel through the experience. Talking will not help , and it had not helped any one.

  • Chris says:

    g.shanthani….this is very sad to hear. we know in this world that leaving it is inevitable, sometimes sooner than one thinks. we need to be ready since noone has their life guaranteed not even for one more day. jesus christ died on the cross to guarantee us eternal life so that even when the physical life ends, the soul can continue living eternally with him in glory. the key however is forgiveness of our sins since noone can enter heaven guilty of their sins. jesus took our guilt upon himself and was punished in our placed, dying on our behalf. by receiving him today into your heart, you can have everlasting life through him. for more information on knowing jesus personally and his forgiveness of your sins log onto knowingjesuspersonally.com or click talk to a mentor above. my prayer for you is jesus consolation and understanding about this life and the hope in the next through him. blessings and peace to you today!

  • g.shanthani says:

    Hi i got married before 6 months. But this month may first i lost my husband… We r love married i can not able to forget him. I dont want to live without him…. Still i love him very much
    he attened suicide for a small missunderstanding between me and him… Bcoz he is loving me very much. So i can not able to live… I want to die and i want meet him…. His name is umapathy

  • g.shanthani says:

    Hi i got married before 6 months. But this month may first i lost my husband… We r love married i can not able to forget him. I dont want to live without him…. Still i love him very much

  • Jamie Jamie says:

    Hi Anon, I am not sure why you are angry at this article and God but I know that killing yourself is not the best answer. What is going on in your life that makes you feel that death is the best option? Does your anger at God play into that? How has He hurt you?

    Let me ask that before you do anything to hurt yourself please call 1-800-784-2433 and talk with a crisis counselor there. Talking to someone could help in changing your perspective on things and find new solutions to the struggles you find yourself in.

    Let me pray for you: Dear Jesus, I pray for this individual and ask that You help guide his/her decisions. Help Anon to make the call to the crisis counselor and through that bring some hope back into Anon’s life. I know that You love Anon more than any of us can imagine. I pray that he/she would sense that love right now. Amen.

    Anon we can talk here if you would like, or if you want a more private conversation you can connect with one of our mentors through email. Just fill out the Mentor Request Form at http://powertochange.com/discover/talk-to-a-mentor and one of our mentors will connect with you soon by email. It is free and private. Feel free to talk about why you are angry at God. No one is going to get worked up over that. Maybe talking about it will bring some new ideas that you hadn’t considered before.

    I will be praying for you.

  • anon says:

    [expletive removed] you all and your god im killing myself

  • Jesse Dobbins says:

    Ok so not one person knows JESUS himself committed suicide? ?? I mean he did knowingly and willingly take that walk correct!!!! I say you know if your a SAVED SOUL or not JESUS actually took part in his on death hut my friends I did it for a reason only to mend those HEARTS that surely was HELL bound. …So in fact JESUS surely did catch a charge for assesory to suicide/murder !! But rest assure his heart was pure an his time was then.. I guess what I’m saying is you better be dang sure of your righteousness before hand…And I’m certain if I was to buy my ticket Home today, There would be a few HELLBOUND HEARTS TO that would see MY FATHERS HOUSE !!!!! But the truth is your already in HELL look around. ….this so called life here no my friends life is after you redeemed worthy…and you don’t wanna be earthly worthy you wanna be commandment worthy. ….So make time to help someone …give your neighbor a cup of JESUS …don’t listen to this new age sex you up music in front of your children don’t send to the babysitters on your day off. ..treat people better than yourself. …do.t lie cheat or steal or revenge/avenge let GOD do it !!!! You follow the rules an you’ll feel it ….an it feels wonderful. ..but I must say for those who think repentance a of sin against man must be asked forgiveness from that one you wronged (yes confession by mouth to man) not a catholic confession silly there not GOD nor the one young wronged are they???????? FOLLOW GODS HEART AND YOULL BE TESTED TO THE FULLEST DONT GIVE UP BECAUSE YOULL BRLE THE FOOLEST. ..ITS ALL ABOUT HELPING EACH OTHER NOT WANT YOU DRIVE NOR THE LATEST TECHNOLOGY DEVICE C’MON PEOPLE IMAGINE IF YOU WERE GOD LOOKING DOWN WERE ABUNCH OF IDIOTS CHASING WHAT JESUS SURELY DIDNT LIKE MONEY …RUSHING WERE AWAY FROM YOUR FAMILY SLOW DOWN …THE MARKETERS HAVE RUINED LIFE ALL WE DO IS WORK AWAY FROM FAMILY IF YOU SPEND MORE TIME AT WORK THAN WITH YOUR LOVED ONES ARE YOU GOING TO THE GOOD LIFE ??????

    $$$$$$$$ HELL NO $$$$$$$$

  • Chris says:

    Jenny…sorry to hear of your struggles…as you know within yourself, taking your life isnt the answer. please share the problems you are facing and we will seek jesus together for his answers for you. waiting for your next blog!!

  • pilgrim says:

    Hi Jennie,

    I’m reading – currently at page 30 – (Man Search for Meaning by Dr. Frankl – he survived the Holocaust he was prisoner in auschwitz) – hopefully it help. (if you are not important I would not write this message – so you are important at least to me)

    Dr. Frankl, author-psychiatrist, sometimes asks his patients who suffer from a multitude of torments great and small, “Why do you not commit suicide?” From their answers he can often find the guide-line for his psycho-therapy: in one life there is love for one’s children to tie to; in another life, a talent to be used; in a third, perhaps only lingering memories worth preserving.

    if you are interested read this (link below) and get help from professional:
    http://www.pursuit-of-happiness.org/history-of-happiness/viktor-frankl/

    or google “Man Search for Meaning PDF”

    Good luck

  • Elkay says:

    Jennie, please know deep inside that you are important in the sight of God. He says, “You are precious to me … and I love you” (Isaiah 43:4, TLB). The very reason Jesus Christ came to earth to offer Himself in sacrifice is so that we might have life in all its fullness, and it is His desire that we be set free from depression, fear, frustration, and hurt so that we might experience this abundant life. Furthermore, God has good reasons for your life, for He also says “we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.” (Eph 2:10)

    The most important thing you can do right now is to anchor your life solidly to Jesus Christ by committing your life without reserve to Him. God loves you, and He wants you to be part of His family. All you have to do is turn to Christ and ask Him to come into your heart as your Lord and Savior. Have you made that commitment to Christ? Turn to Him now—and then you will have a new desire to live a life with purpose.

    Also, remember that God often uses other people to help us. Many who struggle with suicidal feelings benefit from talking with someone who can pray with them and help sort things out. We would urge you to counsel with a Gospel-preaching pastor in your area. You may also benefit from the advice of a professional Christian counselor. For referrals to individual Christian counselors near you, you may contact the following: Focus on the Family, http://www.family.org/ telephone: (719) 531-3400, or the Narramore Christian Foundation, http://www.ncfliving.org/ telephone: (818) 288-7000, or RAPHA, telephone: 1-800-383-HOPE.

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