My Wife’s Affair Shattered our Marriage

Written by Ron and Nancy C. Anderson

HowWeSurvivedanAffair_290x220My wife repeated the sentence I could not understand,  “I’m moving out”.

I searched her eyes for the familiar fire. Seeing none, I thought,  “Who is this woman?” My wife of two years had become an instant stranger.

“What are you saying? Why do you want to leave?”, I asked.

“I’m unhappy and lonely and miserable actually.” There, it was out. “You make me miserable. Maybe with a little distance between us we’ll get closer”.

I touched her arm, but she pulled away as I said, “It doesn’t make any sense. How can distance make us closer?”

”I don’t know, but I do know that I can’t stay here.  I need some time to sort things out, a little space. I’m not even sure I even love you or that I ever did”.

I stood frozen, as I begged,  “Please don’t go now. Can’t you wait until tomorrow?”

She silently picked up her suitcase, flung her purse over her shoulder, and with a dramatic toss of her hair, walked out our front door.

A hidden affair

I knew that I hadn’t been the best husband, and that I got angry at her too often. I knew that my need to be right often made her wrong.

I knew that, lately, she had been distant. But I didn’t know that my wife was having an affair.

During the month Nancy was gone, I was a mess. Each time I called her, I would start to cry and ask her what I could do to get her to come home, but she answered my questions with one-word sentences. Then she would abruptly say,  “I gotta go”, and hang up.

I asked friends to “spy” on her, and they told me that she seemed fine … happy. They told me to move on with my life and try to accept the fact that she was gone. When Nancy told me she was filing divorce papers, I believed that our marriage was over.

Then, one night, after a miraculous change of heart, (read Nancy’s book Avoiding the Greener Grass Syndrome for the full story) she came home and said, “I’ve been lying to you for months, but I’m going to tell the truth now. Ask me anything.”

“Is there another man? Are you having an affair?”

She looked away and whispered, “Yes, with a man at work.  But it ends today. I’m going to quit my job tomorrow and I will never see him again. I hope that you will take me back and we can stay married.”

Rebuilding our marriage

The decision to forgive came quickly, but the rebuilding of our marriage took a long time.  I would feel good one day and hopeless the next. Then she would get frustrated and confused. There might be a week where we would be caring and loving, and then we’d slip into old patterns and have to remind ourselves to get back on track.

When we got back together, it was a good day if we were just polite to each other. If we could say “please” and “thank you” and not fight or yell,. That was as much as we could have hoped for.

The first thing we did was get godly advice from a wise Christian couple.  Then we spent several months seeing a Christian marriage counselor. We got involved in our church’s couples group, and started reading marriage materials. We knew we had to find out, “Okay, what does a husband do? What is my role? What does that look like?” She had to find out, “What is a Godly wife supposed to do?” We learned Biblical principles and found practical ways to apply them.

Another important ingredient to healing was that we offered each other mercy while we were trying to change.

When we slipped up, we tried not to get too bent out of shape over it because we both knew we were trying. It was like we were two parallel pendulums swinging back and forth, just missing each other. But through self-control and studying God’s Word, and putting those principles into our marriage, eventually we became like two pendulums, swinging in sync–together. But it took time, self-control, and a strong commitment.

Many of the habits we had established were very difficult to break. Before, we would be waiting for the other person to make a mistake so we could point it out. But when we began this new cycle. I was trying to please her and she was trying to please me.

A new personal mission

Probably the one thing that helped me the most was the verse in 1 Peter 3:7 where it instructs me to dwell with my wife in understanding.  For years and years, every comedian on television says, “Oh, I can’t understand my wife”.  It’s the proverbial joke in our culture. But if the Bible tells us to dwell with our wives in understanding, it must be possible.

I did not ask for details of Nancy’s affair.  I didn’t want obsess about what she did and where she did it. When the thoughts of her with him came to taunt me, I didn’t allow them to stay. Instead, I chose to think about the future we were building.  I took the advice I read in the Bible in Philippians 4:8 which reminded me to think about things that were pure, admirable, lovely and good.

I made it my personal mission to try to understand my wife.

I learned that my wife is more sensitive than my buddy.  I can tease and make wise cracks at my friend’s expense, and he’s just going to respond with a playful insult. But when I make fun of my wife, it breaks her down emotionally and spiritually. It hurts her and she pulls away from me.

I learned that if my wife says, “You’re’ tailgating and it’s scaring me”, I should stop tailgating.  If I love her, why would I want to frighten her? The more I understood about my wife, and respected those God-given differences, the less we argued.  We used to have brush fire arguments  – they are the little spats that turn into World War III in 90 seconds. As we worked to extinguish the brushfires, the intimacy grew, and our love grew.

Soon, Nancy realized how much my forgiveness meant to her. She thanked me many times for being willing to take her back.  She treated me with new respect and I began to appreciate her.

25 years later

I never regretted my choice to forgive Nancy. It’s been over 25 years since Nancy’s affair but we’ve never stopped learning from it.

Her affair was a symptom of a terminally ill marriage. I’m not excusing her behavior, but I was not an attentive, loving, encouraging husband.  She repeatedly told me how sad, lonely, and discouraged she felt and I selfishly tried to talk her out of her needs. I didn’t compliment her enough and I was not the spiritual leader of our home.  Our marriage was a mess and a lot of that was my fault.

We choose to take the value system God has for marriage and though our emotions may change, God’s standard doesn’t change and He is there to help us.

Our theory is: always be fine-tuning your relationship. Never let your guard down for a moment. Never take each other for granted and be careful not to get caught up in emotions because our emotions can deceive us.

We are amazed at how far we’ve come – we laugh a lot now and really enjoy each other. Our 22-year-old son often sees us holding hands and sees that we are living examples of mercy and restoration.

We had a broken home – but with the Lord’s help and a lot of work, it’s fully restored–stronger than before. My wife’s affair shattered our marriage but God redeemed what was lost and restored our marriage!

For more information about Ron and Nancy’s story, go to their marriage blog at www.joyfulmarriage.blogspot.com or read Nancy’s book, Avoiding the Greener Grass Syndrome:How to Grow Affair Proof Hedges Around your Marriage.

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155 Responses to “My Wife’s Affair Shattered our Marriage”

  • Tom Tom says:

    Truth—
    It sounds from your comments that you had a lot of people fail you over the years. If that’s true, I’m really sorry for you.

    I’m also sorry for you that you have the fatalistic attitude that you can’t rely on anyone. While it’s true that you can’t rely on people as totally as you can the unfailing Jesus Christ, there are plenty of people that are totally reliable. And I can assure you that when either my wife or I die, we won’t in the slightest think the dying one failed us.

    You use some scripture and seem to indicate that God will, in fact, never fail, and that indicates you have some spiritual beliefs. But your comment that “still it’s 50%-50%” reveals either that you think even God may fail you in the end, or that you have never truly repented and trusted Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and therefore realize you are NOT right with him.

    Do you understand that you need his grace because of the sin in your life? Do you desire with all your heart and mind to turn from those sins because they are separating you from a loving, holy God? Are you at all concerned that if you die in your sins you will be separated from God forever in hell? If so, then run, don’t walk, to Jesus Christ. Confess your sins to him and humbly ask him to save you. Not only will you be born again as a child of God, but he will begin to change your heart and attitude about others and take away the limiting idea that everyone is bound to hurt you in some way.

  • truth is hurt says:

    Hi Tom, / and to DE
    If he can save his marriage that’s excellent.

    Love other as you love yourself – Matt 22:39 (if you don’t know how to love yourself, how can you love other/your partner – if you cannot rely on yourself how other/partner/kids can rely on you). This is the reason I said man up: love yourself first – gain your confidence. If she sees you have confidence and she can rely on you hopefully she will take you back.

    but the truth is:
    Everyone will fail you eventually (intentionally or unintentionally) – even if you have great marriage, someday your partner will die because we are human and that time you will feel that your partner fail you.

    If you’re lucky enough to die first before your partner, your health/body will fail you. Every created thing will fail you eventually.

    Don’t fear if she is leaving you: For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. 2 Timothy 1:7.

    And last question when I die – It will be between me and HIM – I hope he is merciful as in bible if not I’m doom but if God does not exist so be it.

    And I don’t think you have seen HIM but if you see HIM, say hi from “truth is hurt”

    I never seen HIM but I don’t want to take my chance on the wrong side against ALL POWERFUL BEING. but still it’s 50% – 50%

  • Tom Tom says:

    Thanks for your love for others Nancy.

  • Nancy says:

    My husband and I wrote this account of our marriage a few years ago, but I want you all to know that WE ARE STILL together and very much in love. We have our good and bad days, but we choose each day to see the best and believe the best about each other. My book Avoiding the Greener Grass Syndrome is available on Amazon as a download or Kindle book. So, you can read the whole story, of how we rebuild, and with God’s help, were healed.

  • Tom Tom says:

    To Truth is hurt–
    I would suggest that DE’s actions regarding his marriage show that he has, in fact, “manned up.” They show he is a man of God who desires to keep his marriage together even in the fact of overwhelming odds, because God’s view of marriage is a sacred vow between a man and a woman for life. While it’s unfortunate that so many marriage partners quickly ignore the vows they take on their wedding and seek only to serve their selfish motives, they are some like DE who wish to honor those vows “til death do us part.” Marriage is worth fighting for, not just ignoring or discarding.

    As for yourself “Truth”, since you don’t know if there is a heaven, what do you think is going to happen to YOU when you die?

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