My Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live.
Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother’s womb.
Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don’t know me.
John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4

And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you.
Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you.
1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me.
1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is… Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God
Father’s Love Letter used by permission Father Heart Communications
© 1999-2011 http://www.FathersLoveLetter.com

I cannot imagine how hard a road you have walked, but it sounds like you have done everything you could. You sound like a good Mom. You prayed hard, and often, you kept your kids safe even though it meant that you were alone for years. I can hear a lot of guilt in your comment. You are not responsible for what your ex-husband did to your kids. He is the one who will answer to God for that, not you. You must have cried so many tears.

When we feel far away from God it always means that we are the one who put space between us. God does not move away from us, we move away from Him because we’re scared or we feel guilty or dirty or unworthy. God calls out to each of us with open arms. I do not know your story, but I do know that God promises that if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. You can be on speaking terms with God right now in this moment. He’s only ever one prayer away.

I remember hearing a speaker years ago who said that salvation has two parts to it: expiation and propitiation. The first one is the salvation that saves us from the things we have done with our own hands, thoughts and voices. But the second one, propitiation, that’s the salvation that saves us from the things that we done to us. When 1 John 1:9 talks about “cleanse us from all unrighteousness” that’s what it’s talking about. You are not guilty of the things that were done to you (or to your kids) but God cleans up the mess from that too. He wipes away the evil that other people smeared on our faces, he cleans the heart from all those hurts. You are carrying a heavy load. Have you considered seeing a counsellor or a pastor for some additional support? I think it could really help.

Olivia,we do have online prayer mentors that would love to join you in praying for your daughter as well. Just fill out the form on this page and someone will email you. http://powertochange.com/discover/need-prayer/