I am not going to lie, it was hard mentally all the way till the day I delivered. God gave me this verse about half way through..

Forget about what has happened before, do not think about the past, instead look at the new thing I am going to do. Isaiah 43:18-19

and a new thing He indeed did do!

To all the women that have experience m/c and still waiting for your miracle, please keep trusting God. He has a plan and He often works on a different time table then us.

<3

You should write your story! I would like to be able to read it. The pain is sometimes so intense though that it feels as if it will literally break my heart, when I wrote it. I remember that pain very vividly. But at some level it is a relief to get all of those feelings out onto paper. But very painful. And there is hope. There is. If there wasn’t, then all of the talk of God would be pointless. There is hope because there is God. The God of heaven who cares for us even in the midst of this sin-cursed world that affects all of us, and for us as women it affects our bodies. I hate it. I wish it was not so. But it is. I’m sorry. Praying that God will give you continual strength as you go through this journey. Ours has reached some resolution as we have been given a beautiful baby girl. :) But that doesn’t mean that we are through all of the struggle. There could be more issues in the future, but we don’t know. God is still God and He is still in control. in Him ~ Linnea

Thanks for responding again and sharing where you are at with the whole subject of infertility and children. :) I read through the verse you were mentioning (Ps.113:9) and agree that it definetly could be seen as stating that God will give the barren woman children. And I agree that God does give us what we ask for and we do need to have faith that He can and will do it, if it is in His will. God does and has given many barren women children, but He also has with held them from many as well. But I hope and pray that someday in the near future that does become a reality for you as you seem to desire them greatly! :)
And I will also pray that as you wait patiently for this gift from God that you continue to desire God above all else. That’s the hardest part of this whole journey, to worship and desire God and to be content in the middle of not knowing whether or not we are to be blessed with kids. Let me know how things go as I would love to know!

The questions never go away. :) Sadly. I think in fact that it is merely the focus that changes. I still don’t know why God allowed us to have two miscarriages. I wish I did. I grieve to this day, three years later, for the first child and two years for the second. and I remember vividly the days when I wondered often whether or not God would ever put a child to keep into our arms. It becomes a new normal, something that I never wanted but something that God has allowed into my life. And as you say, we don’t know the results, but hopefully we learn to embrace whatever He has for us. Because the bitterness, resentment, anger, frustration, fears, etc…that can quickly overwhelm us are just that overwhelming. They don’t do any good in the long run and they make us miserable and in fact can do the same to everyone around us. Its hard work, this particular part of life.
Thankfully we don’t have to go it alone. God has promised to never leave us nor forsake us and for that I am grateful.

Thanks for commenting! Yes, it is a long hard road, waiting for the blessing of God. Something that I’ve learned over and over again is that God is in charge of the timing. No matter how many times or things that we tried, until He wanted it to happen, nothing happened. Its so frustrating as a human, as we want to be in charge and in control, but although God does allow us to have involvement in the process, the results are really all up to Him. Praying for you as you wait.