I am so sorry to hear that there is something wrong with your thyroid! That is not fun news to get over text. May I pray for you and your health? (You can even pray with me by reading these words if you want to!)”Jesus, we just pray that you would heal Madison from the inside out. Jesus, thank-you that you care so much about Madison that you even wanted to talk to her by giving her a dream! Jesus, you are our healer and you only give good gifts to your children. We just pray that Madison’s health would increase and that her thyroid would be completely restored. All this we pray in the powerful name of Jesus, Amen.”

About going to Austin, that does sound like a time crunch in trying to spend time with your Dad as well as get that appointment booked. Is your Mom booking it for you? I hope that you can fit into your schedule and that you have a really nice visit with you Dad. It sounds like you miss him.

Can I pray something else with you? Lord I pray that Madison would know to the deepest of her being that she is totally, completely, 100%, loved and accepted by you. Lord, you are so proud of her! Lord thank-you that you have so many roles to play in Madison’s life: You are her friend, her healer, her Shepard but most of all you are her Father. Lord, I pray that Madison would know the length, height, width and depth of your love for her as a Father. Lord, would you fill her up completely with your good and safe love so that she is satisfied. I pray that your living water would overflow in her life and would you heal every part of her– her mind, spirit, body and soul. Father, thank you that you sent to the Holy Spirit so that we may be comforted by your love. Father in the places that Madison is sad we pray that your comforting love would come and give her rest and peace. All this we pray in your name Jesus! Amen :)

Madison, when I have been really upset in the past or lost heart I started to put my favourite Bible verses on little cards. Then, I would read them when I was sad, or angry or when I felt lonely. Does that interest you at all? If it does here is a really awesome verse…Have you heard of the verse in Ephesians 3:14-21?

14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge–that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. 20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

I wrote in reply to your situation a while back. I was an anorexic sufferer. When are you going to go do something about your situation instead of just talking about it? Anorexia is DEADLY!!!! It does major organ damage and causes fainting spells. If you truly have anorexia and are concerned you will go to your doctor to have the necessary blood tests done to check where your blood levels are at. You will go to an specialist that deals in anorexia or a clinic. Anorexia is not something to just sit and tell your whoas about. It needs immediate action. When my mother took me to the psychiatrist, he gave me a verbal butt kicking. So what I’m telling you is nothing in comparison to what he said to me.

I find it amazing that mentors are not actually advising you to get help.

Wow Madison it’s so cool that you had this dream! Do you think that maybe it could of been God giving you this dream? It sounds like you have a pretty good grasp on what the dream means. I would agree with you that it’s probably a sign to take better care of your body so that you can have strength to go through life. Have you heard that dreams from God are actually not that uncommon? In my experience, sometimes God gives me dreams so that I know in advance the right decision to make or it can be a warning dream so that I will be protected from danger. That said, God really cares about YOU and your health. Can I propose possibly a bit more interpretation to your dream? Ultimately, you can decide if you feel it is right or not but I just thought I would tell you what I thought of the first part of the dream i.e ” I was with the youth group at my church and I guess we were on a road trip.” Could it be that you are about to embark on a journey in real life or a change in your life soon (starting a demanding sports routine, hard classes for school or something else) that requires extra energy for you? The reason why I ask you this is because, maybe God is preparing you for something that is about to occur in your life (whether you are aware or not) and for you to fully enjoy this journey he is taking you on (with others) you need to be strong and healthy! Usually when we prepare for a journey we want to make sure we are “ready” to go. The main premise of your dream seems to be that “you felt weak” (passing out, falling off a cliff)-I read in your earlier posts that you have been able to talk with your Aunt about your struggles with anorexia a little bit. That is so good! Is there anyone else that you can also talk to or confide in right now? It sounds like you are just needing a lot of encouragement and strength. I don’t know how connected you are with your youth group- but do you have a youth pastor that you can talk to? I know there is loads of information about eating right from all different kinds of sources on the internet. I don’t want to overwhelm you but there is a really great book called “Intuitive Eating” written by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch. Here is the link to their webpage: http://www.intuitiveeating.org/. If you check out the tab 10 principles I think you will be really encouraged by a set of tools you can grasp on to. It may even help with the dilemma you just wrote about (regretting eating the popcorn bag and then not being hungry for dinner). Intuitive eating encourages you to listen to your body (just like your dream!) so that you can skip the part of feeling guilty or bad if you have over-ate or under-ate. I hope you have a good day Madison and if you have any questions or comments just keep writing them :)

Remember that nutrition is more about eating the right foods than it is about hitting a certain number of calories in a given day. Coffee in the morning isn’t going to fill you up for long because there’s nothing in it for your stomach to digest. To stay satisfied longer you want foods that take longer for your body to process – things like complex carbohydrates found in whole grains – and the protein we talked about before. With a little research you should be able to find a filling breakfast that isn’t too high on calories (just watch out for the sugar that often creeps into breakfast foods). I think you’ll find that with a good breakfast it will be calories well spent because you won’t go into the day focussed on food. You’ll be full and can think about other things.

There has been so much research done on the importance of breakfast – especially for people who are conscious of eating well and who don’t want to overeat. Eating breakfast is an excellent way to set yourself for food success all day. It’s important to honour your hunger. Eating when you are a hungry is one of the ways you take care of your body and you may find that if you eat when hungry you spend less time thinking about food because your body is content.

Some of the research that has been done in the past couple of years has focussed on the importance of protein in the morning. Many people yeah for carbs first thing – whether that’s cereal, bread, oatmeal, fruit etc. But protein has been shown to satisfy hunger longer, especially first thing in the morning. You could try yoghurt, eggs, cheese, nuts, or tofu (which is especially good in shakes). If you ignore your hunger it’s a bit like ignoring a small child – they just yell louder. Your body is trying to get your attention with hunger and when that doesn’t work, the hunger gets worse. Try eating breakfast for a few days and see if you like the way you feel. There are lots of great, healthy vegetarian breakfast recipes online.