How do I deal with my bulimia?
I’m a 26-year-old student who has been suffering from bulimia for the past 10 to 12 years. I know I have some serious problems. Unfortunately I don’t know how to deal with them. On the outside I seem like someone who has the best life possible. On the inside the story is completely different.
I have the feeling that if I told a single person the truth, my life would be ruined. My image would be permanently harmed and I would end up looking like a loser. I’m from a very prominent and well-known medical family – the whole country knows my family so this has big personal price for me. I know all bulimia stories are very alike, it’s just that this one is mine. And since it is killing me slowly, not a single word said about it is wasted.
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There are also eating disorder specialists. What have you been studying in college? Can you take courses in personal therapy? Prominent families are supposed to help others – you can say “This is how I want to help others.” As a part of that it is good to go to therapy to know what it is like to be on that side of the couch. That would be one way for you to get help, if you felt you couldn’t make yourself sign into a hospital-even though that is still a good idea. Keeping this a secret will kill you. Please get help.
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Fairly insightful post. Never believed that it was this simple after all. I had spent a good deal of my time looking for someone to explain this subject clearly and you’re the only one that ever did that. Kudos to you! Keep it up
Can I have a mentor email me too? That would be such a blessing! rachee_christine@hotmail.com
Thank you for your reply Bethany, I have submitted your request for a mentor and you soon will receive an email from a mentor. Please keep your eye out for an email from “The Mentor Center”. Until you hear from one of our mentors, I am going to leave you with a prayer.
Dear Lord,
I pray for Bethany, be with her to break this destructive habit. Help her to live a healthy life. Let you be her source of satisfaction and strength.
In your Holy name,
Amen
Thank you for your reply. I am very interested in getting in touch with someone from The Mentor Center. Please set this up. I want to make lasting progress nd not backslide.
-Bethany
Hi, Bethany, I saw your comment on our article http://powertochange.com/life/famousbulimia/ and we do have a mentor that you can talk with. Mentors are trained volunteers with real world experience and can often help to offer a second opinion, a listening ear or other resources. These are big issues you’re dealing with and mentors are the best resource we have to help work through them.
If you decided to give it a try, the mentor would email you using our secure system, The Mentor Center (TMC). TMC ensures your privacy by protecting your information. If you want to keep talking, just hit reply. The conversation is confidential and non-judgmental. You can keep talking to your mentor as long as you like and there is never a fee.
If this sounds like something that might help, just reply to this email and I’ll set it up for you.
Sincerely, Leah
I too am suffering from Bulimia — long time– since I was 17 and now I am 52.
I would love to have someone to e-mail with who is going through the same things. Maybe we can support each other in our goals to stopo because we would have someone to be honest with.
I have tried so hard to give it up and have stopped for a week at a time, but that all. It has now really gotten out of hand and yet I have been able to keep it a secret. I know it stems from my teen years of low self-esteem, a warped desire to be thin and my perfectionist personality. But now, so many years later, it is really just habitual. I’ve lost all sense of how to eat normally and run on autopilot. I don’t feel that any psychological reasons still exist for me but that I have developed such and ingrained and very bad habit. I am happily married with 2 kids. I have a successful career, am happy and with the exception of my habit, I consider myself well-adjusted. I really have nothing to be depressed about and don’t think that I am. I have dug such a deep hole for myself. I am now worried about what bulimia is doing to my helath (I only binge and purge — not diruetics or laxative use). I have ostioporous and my doctor just recently discovered that my potassium levels are low. So no I am afraid she is going to probe further and find out my horrible secret! I am hoping I am scared enough to stop. I have not binged or purged for 4 days now and need someone with whom I can talk and get encouragement from. I really am determined to make it this time. I am a Christian and, except for the Bulimia, consider my wlk with HIm to be strong. It is amazing how I have isolated this problem from the rest of my life. I talk with God about it all the time and feel the guilt because I haven’t been willing to surrender it to Him. I always fall back on saying to my self “I guess I really don’t want to stop this bad habit” and yet I really do. I plead with God to make it go away, all the time knowing that there is no temptation which I can’t overcome if I fully rely on God. So, I carry the guilt that I am not fully relying on Him or else I would be able to quit.
I could ramble on and on about this…on how and what I feel, etc. 35 years has given me a lot of experiences and lots of time to falsely reason it and to play mind games. I honestly think I am ready to quit. I need someone to take my hand and walk beside me right now. Is there someone you could put me in touch with via e-mail?