Comments on: Wildflowers from Winter: My Story

By: Jamie

Wed, 17 Oct 2012 19:53:47 +0000

Hi Emma, I am really impressed with your willingness to be honest here. Admitting that you don’t know yourself and that this impacts how you relate to God are difficult things to identify. Something that I have found really helpful is a list of Bible verses that clarify what God says about who we are. There are all kinds of voices in your life that are trying to define you. Who better to listen to than the One who made you and knows everything about you? Go to http://www.ficm.ca/whoiaminchrist.htm to see this list. Read through the verses that are there prayerfully asking for God’s help in accepting the truth of what He says about you. When you start getting hit by other voices again go back to this list and re-affirm who Christ says you are.

By: Lindsay Harrel

Lindsay Harrel — Sun, 14 Oct 2012 13:47:51 +0000

Oh, Emma, I feel for you. You are not alone. So many women struggle with self-esteem and self-hate. Really, they do…they just don’t talk about it. When I doubted my faith, I hated myself. I thought there was something wrong with me. But you know what? God loves you no matter what. And He will NEVER, NEVER reject you. Ever. You are worth loving because He said so. Jesus died because He loved you so much.

I think doubting parts of our faith is totally fine, but we must be willing to ask God to show us the truth. In my opinion, doubting just means you are seriously considering your faith and not just accepting it blindly. God doesn’t hate a doubter; in fact, Jesus showed Doubting Thomas his scars as proof. He wants us to come to a genuine faith, and if it takes asking questions to do that, then I think he’s more than happy to oblige.

As for church, maybe pray about the strength to make a commitment and keep going even though you have questions. It does NOT make you a bad Christian. If you have a friend that goes, ask her to keep you accountable to keep going, no matter what emotions you feel.

I’m praying for you, Emma, that today you would feel God’s great love for you.

By: Emma

Emma — Sun, 14 Oct 2012 01:04:15 +0000

My faith to has been shaken, I to am battling with what to believe.its like there’s two parts of me I guess you could say the flesh battling with god! I’ve been a Christian for about 6 years,I was baptised about 3 years ago and I heard how people’s life from being baptised has completely changed. For me there’s always been a battle I fall away from church don’t attend church because I struggle with the things I don’t believe like healing and bringing people back from the dead.i can believe things and miricales for others but not me.i live in fear I dout everything not just my faith. I front know who I am it’s a constant battle and yet when I throw my toys out of the pram and say that’s it im not a Christian I can never completely let go because I do love him, it’s this battle and I’m desperate to change to have confidence to be transformed. And every time I do step back in to church god brings well the same situation arises and my pain my issue is not feeling loved being rejected I’m convinced that no man will stay with me no man will love me,and I don’t feel worthy of having a Christian husband because how can I when I don’t believe all gods miricales and this battle has been going on for years I just feel (stuck) my family used to go to church they’ve all fallen away and now me well I go and then fall away and have to start all over again. I’m not setting a good example to my daughter Ellie she’s 8!! I’m 27 and I still don’t know who I am.i attend a self esteem course and I’ve had soooo Much prayer for me hating the way I look and it’s silly cause I’m ok Im not shallow I just beat myself up negativity all the time and it’s taking over my life it’s like the only way I can describe it is it’s like someone with an eating disorder they can’t feed them self and I can’t stop thinking if you like bad thoughts. I’m scared of being alone its my biggest fear! Thanks